When is a right time to call

Am I apprehensive and afraid of my future? Is the insecurity and uncertainty of it eating me? Do I sometimes sit back and speculate my future with a cloud on the horizon? Of course I do, for I am as human as the person sleeping right now in the cot next to me.


But daring has always been my forte. Seven years back I would have laughed at anyone if they had predicted I would go on to become a successful software engineer. But the bigger question has always been this? Is this what I am destined to be? To write random pieces of code for lesser mortals? I am here to make my own day and I will. May be I can say I am pilfering my days searching for my future. But I choose say, I am preparing myself for the future I am going to shape for myself.


With every passing year I realize that I am discovering myself all the more. And with each passing year, I also realize that I am not the man I wanted to be a thousand days back. So where finally is my so called destiny taking me. I think I know. The only place I
want to be.

Be back with a bang and that is a promise

Kana Kannil

I have no idea why i haven't added this song to my blog. It is long overdue :)

Surpassing Myself

I have beaten my best now. Without any post in the past five months, I have overdone myself in my lethargy and laziness. The best I could do for now is to put together a list of ten important things I have done in this interim period - to fill the big void.

1. I have managed to complete one full year of corporate life without any major hiccups. I can't remember any other phase of my life spanning more than 400 days that sailed as smooth as now.

2. Got myself a four-wheeler driving license and a PAN card - but I am still not prepared to say I am safe when I sit in a car that I am driving.

3. Made a trip to Gokarna. It is a place one MUST add to your best-and-cheap-places-I-ought-to-go-to list. Seriously lost myself in its mystique and serenity for three full days. I have for long wanted a break from my normal routine life. No mobile phones. No Internet. No computers. No ATM machines. No Electricity. God, it was heaven on earth.

4. Managed to crash my computer - Shivaji - for the first time. The motherboard is now lying dormant in a service center at Chennai. I really miss my Shivaji and am dying to lay my hands on it. May be a resurrected Shivaji will mean more productivity from me.

5. Dutifully fulfilled my resolution to buy and read at least one book per month. But most of the ones I bought are ones I had already read, but wanted to add to my collection. With my own dough, I can afford some now.

6. Managed to do an off-the-record project driven purely by my dreams. See more at http://www/miles2cover.net

7. Played in the TT tournament being organized in my office - it was fun, though I ended up on one of the losing sides. For a brief period of time, it felt as though I was back in my UG again. Sports - that gorgeous commodity of life. Man, I loved the adrenaline. We are now in the process of setting up a TT team and rumor has it that I am to be invited there too.

8. Made myself more sociable. In today's corporate life, it looks like the more fun you are at parties, the more sociable you are. So, I officially announce that I am a social drinker now.

9. Triggered the formation of a group with a Social Cause that calls itself 'Utopia'. I am not sure of the success of the group. But as with all endeavors, good intentions mixed with spirited souls always get more than they are due. Utopia just needs more time to sprout up.

10. Fell in LOVE - Come on. Not many newbies to Apple can resist it for long. I am as mortal as every one else. It sometimes feels odd to look at a windows machine, which has two buttons on the mouse instead of one, which does not have a horizontal scroll. Up until recently, I was thinking that a white computer was archaic and black was the order of the day. That was until I met Mr. Mac

Hoping to be swifter at least with my next post. Bye for now.

New Year

Well. I know it is very late by now. Still "A very Happy New Year" to the very few who visit me here. Come every December 31st I have a very big dilemma. People call me and ask me what my new year resolution is. What do you tell them when you don't have any?

Actually this time around, at the strike of midnight, when the new year dawned, I was on phone as usual. And there was this guy who asked me about my new year celebrations and my new year resolution. And I gave him my usual. "Nothing" :( Now was the more interesting question. The most logical sequel to it. "Why?" Oh God what should I say for that. Curt though I wanted to be I just blurted out, "I don't think the first of January is something special because the Earth has completed a round around the Sun. That too imperfectly. We keep correcting that blemish once every four years". :P How very typical of me.

Now I realize that it is time I broke that self-made jinx of mine. Ain't any day a good day to take a resolution that will do you good? At least let me use this first of January to correct myself. This is my new year resolution. "This year on I am going to talk less". For people who know me better, it shouldn't be hard to realize that this is as difficult to me as is scoring a test century to RP Singh. But I have indeed tried hard in the few days that this year seen and I would declare myself successful thus far. Wish me luck guys.