Thursday, April 09, 2009

Out of Touch...



Hiya,
What an isolated year it has been till now. I haven't said a hai to many of my friends out there in a long long time. No mails, No calls, No messages, Nothing. Come to think of it, I have 251 unread messages in my inbox, the highest ever till now. And I am ashamed to admit that I haven't knocked the ball on the Table Tennis court for quite a while now(I just tried a one-off game which I miserably lost 21-10). My mobile bill this month came down to a petty 600 bucks(pretty small given my big mobile history). Very sparse visits to Chennai. To be true to myself, I haven't been myself.

It surely hasn't been the all-pain-no-gain sort of a time. I have indeed shown my total spectrum of talent in the office and have got enough recognition, for me to give myself a pat on my back. But is this adequate enough for all the life I have lost in a hundred days? All the sleepless nights and all the weekends spent pondering over random segments of code? Do they really tilt the needle on the balance to satisfy me? For some time I did reason to myself that they do. But now I guess I need to rethink my priorities.

I guess I would have been more satisfied had I made progress over the new book I bought(Vairamuthu Kavidhaigal). I should have blogged more often. I even started writing my own story which hasn't gone beyond the first 1000 words. My original plan was to have around 6000 words in that. There was that small thing called fitness which I vowed to increase at the beginning of this year - but haven't. There was that really ugly article which I read in a New Zealand daily. I even mentally wrote a big reply to that article. Never got around to posting it anywhere on the net.

All said, I still will have to stick to this unreal, suffocating schedule till the 20th of May. Once that is over, I seriously decide to take some quality time off and gain some peace into this life of mine. May be I need a vacation, like the one I took back in August 2008

P. S.: All I want is a chance to prove that slogging alone can't make me happy ;)