Susi Does It Again

So with all the concoctions I could create, I managed to escape from the tight spot once again. Somehow managed to arrange for a dead grandpa who was already dead for the past three years. So my guide was sorry for my grandad and also satisfied with my progress ;).But I feel very bad at having to do projects this way. Why should I always mess up things that I can do very well? Three months of hardwork and I know I can manage something that even I will be proud of having done. Most of the projects that I have done to date have been considered worthy of me by many of my peers though I know that I could have put up a far better show had I been more honest to myself. What is it with me? Why should I waste my talents like this and then play a farce with the evaluating panel when I can very easily be telling them things from my heart rather than from my brain? With this shit of a mouth that I got I have made many believe that I am indeed a very intelligent guy. People think that I can always handle projects well even if I don't get my marks. There are guys here who want to be in my team(Karthic, Vijay, Mallu,...). But I know I havent done justice to the belief they have in me though I can. This time though I am not going to let down anybody. If someone is going to be disappointed after this project, it has to be me alone. Enough of lameting I guess. Retrospection is not a healthy option now. HARDWORK is the only thing that can let me feel like myself.

The first review is on the 29th and I am a bit ready for it. That's just the point. I can be prepared even without really working. Not just my friends even my staff believe that my projects are worthy enough of passing their close scrutiny without even scrutinising fully. May be someone should find more faults with me. I am not eligible to get the accolades that I do get. May be if they do get more strict in my case, I will start to work better and my throughput may increase.

So I have written another paragraph about me again? Why does it always have to be ME, ME and ME? Why don't I write something about someone else? There are a lot of nice guys around me. Why don't I write about them? There are a lot of nice things happening around me. Why don't I write anything about them? Why must it always be the ME? May be I am so self-centerd in my thinking. Everybody is. You open a blog to write about you only. But atleast I could have reserved some space for my friends. OK. Here I go.

Vijay is one guy I feel sorry for having missed out on his IBM project. Sad thing to happen so late. But he took it sportively and is now slogging his ass out for an internal project. From another side I think it is better he does a project in the university than at IBM. I think IBM was not utilising him as they could or should. Though he feels that the project given to him was challenging, I firmly believed and still do that it was not worthy of his capabilities.

Another thing I would like to mention. There are a lot of fellows here who are hooked up with a project that is not worthy enough to be done by a student of this cadre. The panel members are looking for some project that has an IEEE base. But these guys argue and say that they ought not to be doing soooooo complex projects. But what then is a project for them? We have had enough of 'hello world' programs already for every semester. Are they thinking of implementing a web service which does nothing and submitting it? Or generating a error report tool for that matter. I am totally with the panel as regards this problem. Let us do something worthwhile for a change.